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~Okay, so… my whole life seems to be spinning around that upcoming trip and my course :) Can’t think about anything else, and it’s just crazy a little. I mean I have to book the flights and arrange the living accommodation and do a million of other things, you know. The most tempting thing is to quit the job and send it all to hell right now… but I need some money, and 2 more months of payment wouldn’t hurt, so I’m still here. It’s nice to know I don’t have to care anymore though.

~I felt a bit discouraged, however, when I offered my mom to go out a celebrate it a little because the last time we actually went out to have a mother-daughter time together was about 6 months ago, and about 8 months before that, but she said she wasn’t up to it. Like, my getting in a very cool school (which wasn’t easy) and then obtaining a study permit (which was even worse) wasn’t a big deal.

I do understand that she is busy with work and may be tired a lot but it’s not like I ask for her to drop everything or have a crazy party or anything. Just a dinner out maybe, some pizza and chat. I mean I will soon move away for at least a year and a half, or more. I don’t really think past first year now but who knows? So… it’s not a big deal, then? Fine!

It hurt, you know. She said we could so smth for my b-day in a month, like have a b-day and school celebration, but I feel totally discouraged to do anything about either. It feels kinda childish but right now I just want to go away already. That’s it.

~Over my very lazy weekend I finished “The Vanishing Game” by Kate Kae Myers. It was a suspense/mystery/supernatural YA novel. Very good! I enjoyed it A LOT! And I highly recommended both for those you like YA and those who enjoy good thriller.

~Really excited about the new season of TV shows. All the shows I like were renewed, and those that I didn’t got cancelled. Fate? Probably the vibes lol But really, it’s good, at least I won’t have to see stuff about those that I’m not a fan of everywhere :P

~I’m considering saying goodbye to TVD, however. Which is undecided still. After the finale, after Alaric got killed off, I have little interest in the storyline. The only character I actually like a lot is Elijah, and I wonder if he is going to stick around for long coz Daniel Gillies has his new show that starts in June, and he’ll probably be busy with it given he’s not a lead on TVD. I’m not saying that I’d quit TVD for good coz there are a lot of shows once stopped and then picked up again because I was bored. We’ll see.

~About the finale

*I knew they’d kill off Alaric, so it wasn’t a surprise, and even though it was utterly sad, I saw it coming. Unlike Jenna’s death last year which I totally didn’t expect. I was ready for it, and I found comfort in him whispering Jenna’s name on his last breath. In my imaginary world, they found peace together at last.

*Elena turning into a vampire wasn’t new either. I was sure it’d be the twist everyone was talking about. I mean come on! So obvious it wasn’t even funny. Also, her choosing Stefan – nothing unexpected either. With 3 more seasons ahead, it would be a lot more surprising if she went for Damon instead.

*Disappointed with the fact that they killed Klaus. I hope we’ll get more of JoMo. I love him for being bad and for his accents and… I just love him, ok?

*Bonnie going to the dark side – who cares?

*I hated how little we saw of Jenna. I bet it cost Sara more to fly from Van to Atlanta to shoot the scenes where she had 2 lines than her actual payment for the work. Also, it’s been a YEAR!! And even though the show is about Elena and her drama, having Sara on set could have shown more of Jenna in the past as well. Something we never had an insight on while she actually was on the show. I doubt they are going to call her back again anytime soon, if ever, so I consider it a wasted opportunity. Unbelievable! And in the end, it would have been SUPER COOL if together with Alaric, Jeremy could see Jenna and say goodbye to her, too. I mean with Sara on set, they could have totally done that, right? As much as I LOVED seeing Jenna again – and it felt like everything was right in the world for a little while – it was rather pointless. I’m happy there won’t be any Alaric/Meredith story though.

*Speaking of, I still try to figure out why they brought in Meredith to the story at all. I’d be royally pissed if she ended up with Alaric but at least it would make sense. They weren’t dating, exactly. Because he was all troubled and shit. Okay, maybe there was a need for a doctor but bringing in a semi-regular character without a specific purpose was so ridiculous. Again, they did that thing I truly hate – half assed not developed story.

*All in all, it was a good episode, and it gave me a good excuse not to waste my time on this show anymore.

~My yoga teacher leaves for India in the end of this week and she won’t be back for the next few months which means I’ll have to say goodbye to her now because it doesn’t look like we’re going to meet anytime soon. It’s sad. Also, it’s getting a bit too warm for yoga, which means I quit in the end of May. Plus, it’ll save me some money, and cash is a critical issue right now.

~Bad sleeping times again. Not sure what’s wrong. This whole anxiety when my brain just wouldn’t shut up is driving me nuts. I worry about too many things at once because there’s just too much at stake. And I can’t help it.

~Oh, look who crawled from under the stone!

Yep, I’m still alive :P These 10 days off were totally cool! Well, maybe not COOL cool but it’s been so long since I could stay at home that I nearly forgot how it could feel.

~So, my very ‘exciting’ time consisted of 2 visits to the dentist. It wasn’t as bad as I feared – because I was drugged and doped enough not to feel much – but wasn’t nice either. I had 4 teeth fixed. That’s what you get for skipping dentist appointments for a while :P Coz I’m a chicken. To be fair, I do have horrible teeth all my life, it’s a miracle I still have any left and I know I should be more responsible here but I just HATE the feeling of some metal sticks in my mouth *ewwww* so it’s always a battle. Hopefully, I’m done for a little while.

~Fun fact, when I have to go through the dentist torture, I usually recite poems in my mind to stay distracted from the whole dentist thing, and I found out that I forgot most of poems I used to know O.o Basically, I decently remember only a couple of Byron’s poems. Mission – to learn more poems, just in case :)

~Meanwhile, I finished “Fever, 1973” by Laurie Halse Anderson. Question – why doesn’t she have more books? I utterly enjoyed this one! My only disappointment was “Prom” but let’s not focus on bad stuff. “Fever, 1793” is a book about 14 yr old Matilda Cook who lived through the epidemics of yellow fever in Philadelphia in August of 1793. Despite being sad and quite squeamish something – I’m not entirely good with reading sickness symptoms and stuff – the book was a fast and light read. I finished it in only a couple of days and was sad to put it away.

~Still struggling through “A Hidden Fire” by Elizabeth Hunter, and I hate every moment of it. I have to finish it somehow but I have no idea how exactly without throwing it away. Also, I’m kind of reconsidering even starting the second book from the series :P

~On the bright side, I finally found “A Monster Calls” by Patrick Ness!!! Which was a huge YAY *SQUEEEEEE!!* because it took my quite a while to come across it. Only a couple of chapters in, and I already enjoy it immensely.

~All in all, I have about 30 unread books X____x Wish I had enough time to go through them all faster :P

~Watched “21 Jump Street” on Saturday because I heard it was good. It was kinda ok but not as good as most were saying. A plain typical comedy that leaves nothing behind. Entertaining though but they swear a lot in it so don’t suggest watching it with your parents.

~TVD…. I have little to say but WOW. I am sure they are going to kill off Alaric as he has little use right now, and I doubt they are going to actually develop him any further. It was confirmed by JP that good Alaric is not coming back, and the bad one is only useful for as long as they need to kill off originals. With Klaus removed… well, as I said, I am not sure he’s going to have a long and happy life from now on.

Not sure how I feel about it. I’m happy for Matt and his role on Cult which with any luck could get picked up as a show and he needs to move on from TVD where his role is not so big. But I’m going to miss Alaric badly if it happens and he is gone. I’m going to miss his bromance with Damon and his parental authority and sweet moments of normality with Jeremy and Elena.

The rest I’m quite excited about, truth be told. By far, the quick paced plot with the Originals and with Alaric outing Carol and Liz to the rest of the Council is interesting and I wonder what’s going to happen next. I’m sure we hadn’t seen the last of Rebekah, and I am more of less invested in Caroline’s story. So… we’ll see. I did love the past couple of episodes, and I am definitely looking forward to the season finale and reappearance of Jenna, however short it could be.

~Speaking of, I made this Jalaric vidlet coz I’m crazy about that song, and coz I wanted to play a little with SV video effects :)



~I saw a prophetic dream. A real one. That came true in the morning after I woke up. I know it wasn’t anything big or significant or whatever but it was just wow, you know?

Having the last day with the boss, then tomorrow he is off, and then I have a week of freedom. I know it’s going to be a waste since I am not going anywhere. Instead, I’m going to visit the dentist, which I know I already mentioned but it’s a big stress factor for me.
Dentists are evil.

I am having an “I miss The X-Files” period. As in, I rewatch some episode, primarily from early seasons when the stuff was scary and cool. as much as love some things about the later seasons, the beginning was the best. There was more creepiness and less government crap.

Katie is leaving on Saturday night and we couldn’t quite fix our schedules to have some proper BFF time :( She promised to stop my office tomorrow tho which is good but not enough :( And I have no idea when we’re going to meet next :(

Still waiting…

~Last Thursday I found out that my bike had a flat tire. Apparently, the camera was damaged, so I had to change it. Which is not fun per se, since I can’t do it on my own. Luckily, my former colleague’s husband has his bike repair shop so at least half of the problem was solved. Another problem was that it was quite far away from my place. I couldn’t ride a bike with flat tire, and I couldn’t walk there, so the challenge was to stuff my huge bike into my rather small car. I honestly hope the neighbors enjoyed the show lol I did it though, so I now have a repaired bike with new brakes coz he changed them as well as mine were old.

Anyway, I went to get a new tire first thing in the morning, then I stopped by the shop to make an appointment but he was free so I just left my bike there to get it fixed and then drove my car back home and came back to leave by bike so that I didn’t have to stuff it inside once again.

Yay, I have a fixed bike :D

~A colleague brought me movie “The Artist” on Friday but I was too busy [doing nothing :P] and didn’t have time to watch it yet. I heard it was really good so I hope I’ll watch it soon :)

~I’m not big on movies lately, whenever I try watching smth, it gets boring to me :P I tried watching Crazy, Stupid, Love with Ryan Goslin and Emma Stone on Saturday but I managed to make it through only 15 minutes before it started looking like a horrible waste of time, so I turned if off and went to watch TVD again. I’m on season 1 which in my opinion is the best.

~In other great news –really great – is that my friend Katie who moved away about 8 months ago came for a visit. Her grandma still lives here so she came for almost 3 weeks :D She came to visit me on Saturday and we plan to go out one or two times more before she leaves in the end of April. It’s really awesome because she was my only close friend around here and I miss her greatly :( And who knows when we are going to meet again? We talked for a while, about her life THERE and my life HERE and how some things changed and others remained totally the same. I took her to her grandma’s then, but we sure need to catch up properly later.

She gave me a coffee cat!!! *-* it’s made of cloth that had been soaked in coffee and it smells so good! lol My cats approved hehe

Coffee cat!


~There’s too much fuss about TVD finale online now, and I’m trying to figure out how I feel about the possibilities and spoilers. They all say major and shocking death in the finale. My bets are equally on Tyler and Elijah. It was made pretty clear that Jeremy was going to come back in S4, and the same goes for Klaus. The rest of them? I wouldn’t call them major or shocking.
Alaric is not quite safe either but they said several times that they want to do more with him s I don’t think it’s him. They won’t kill Caroline for sure. And Matt or Kol or Rebekah dying would be sad but hardly major and shocking.
Another possibility is that they may kill Elena to turn her into a vampire but I hope the fuss is not about it because it would kinda be shocking but not much because we all know it is going to happen sooner or later anyway, and she is the lead character so she is not going to die forever, and it sort of kills the excitement. Honestly, whatever happens to the main trio is always boring because we all know they are not going to die forever, and it really kills the shock effect.
In short, I hope it’ll actually be something big and interesting. Soooo, waiting huh? It’s just… they promise something huge all the time but in the end we never get anything, and it gets on my nerves. Maybe I’m not just THAT into the show anymore to Oh and Ah about everything but there should be something remotely decent about it anyway, and all we have is lots of promises :P

~Matt Davis signed up for so many conventions, and he just HAD to do it on the year that I am not doing any conventions at all :P How not cool is that? The one is in Vienna, and I would SO love to go because I’m crazy about Vienna :P Ah, maybe some other time but I kinda know that the possibilities and chances are slim :( Which brings me right back to my plan to kidnap him and live together on some remote island in pacific ocean lol What? A girl can dream!

~I’m a bad reader :P My progress is very slow the past couple of weeks and I hate it :P Too much distraction lately for reading tho. Not cool either.

~I need to have a girls night out with Mom, maybe in a week or two. Probably when Katie is gone. It’s been ages since we went out together for some pizza and a movie, so obviously it needs to happen. I just hope there’s something good in the cinemas, which is not Twilight or Hunger Games. Again, I have a movie problem. There are very few announcements I’m excited about but I hope we’ll find something good :) I used to live in the movie theatres a while ago :P

Drama of the day – one of my YT videos had been stolen, as in – some freak downloaded it, changed the music and posted it as their own. I am so fucking outraged right now because seriously, it took me a lot of a time and a great deal of effort to make this video, and someone just STOLE IT!! Funny thing, it was tagged, so it is not my video with my name on the tag. Right now, I really wish I could just punch this person in the face, really, really hard! I know it’s YT and basically I can’t clam any copyrights and stuff but this video still had my name tag on it! I mean, seriously?
I posted a comment on the video and also sent a message to that person asking them to remove the video because it is obviously not theirs. I hope they will. And if not, I will just keep doing it every day until they do.

Does anyone know if there is anything specific I can do? Is there any way to report this person for being a thieving jerk?

~So, I have successfully finished “A Thousand Splendid Suns” and I highly recommend this book to everyone. It is one of those meaningful ones that inevitably leave something behind. Something that kind of makes your life more meaningful.

“A Thousand Splendid Suns” is a book about 3 generations of women living in Afghanistan whose lives got intertwines. It’s a book about their dreams and hopes and losses and suffering, and all things that life usually consists of. The situation with the female population in the Islamic countries had always been quite complex, there have always been some struggle between modern approach to treating a woman and following the traditions.

I cannot possibly speculate on that, I am too feministic in too many ways for that. Besides, I can’t see it clearly through their eyes as I have been raised as a too independent person to consider the wishes and demands of the husband. Ha! Tell me what to do and I’ll tell you where to go.

Well, it’s not the point now. I have to say that “A Thousand Splendid Suns” is a wonderful well written book. You will cry, a lot. I bawled my eyes out because it was that sad and heartbreaking but I lover every moment of it, I love it so, so much! Go and read it now!

~I now started reading Jellicoe Road by Melina Marchetta. Can’t say anything about it yet, only a few pages in but I’ll make sure to let you know if it is any good because I have heard some great things about that book and I hope it’ll be awesome :)

~Last Sunday I woke up with a sudden urge to watch “The Shining”. Verdict – a few years ago and watched in the dark is seemed A LOT scarier. Now it was quite…. Well, not lame exactly but definitely old school, and if watched on Halloween, I wouldn’t even blink :P Speak of growing up

~The bright side of my life in general is that it is finally warm enough for me to take my bike out and go the rides. It only works on weekends so far because it’s getting dark quite early yet and it doesn’t make sense to go out after work if I have, like, 20 minutes for it.

~The job is getting quite unbearable lately. I know I am not going to get a vacation or anything but I swear to god, another meeting, and I will start screaming and punching people. So much for yoga and having balance in my life. Yeah, right. It’s easy to be balanced when I sit on my mat. It’s another thing entirely when you waste your time on blah blah blah. It is just…. It’s really horrible. And it’s so not right ot wake up every morning and be like – why am I even alive? Not right :P Waiting for my personal issue to solve so that I could know what to do about this whole thing :P

~It’s the first year since 2009 that I’m not going to do any conventions, and it’s a little bit sad and unsettling. I am so used to seeing my awesome friends at the cons that not having it to look forward to is very weird. I don’t have any traveling plans for 2012, which is not great either but I have to deal with it, I guess.

~In my life, it only rains on a few occasions – right after I washed my car, the moment I decide I want to go for a bike ride and when I absolutely need to have a sunny weather. Granted, the latter doesn’t happen too often but still!

Yesterday, I happened to wash the car and had a plan to ride my bike. It rained for about 20 hrs in a row, naturally. Not that I mind, in general. I love rain, and I love it that I sleep better when it rains. But it was a little bit annoying because – bike, duh? Been waiting for the bike season since October :P

~There is a new funny TV show called Bent about a carpenter and his client who fell for each other and, naturally, refused to acknowledge it. It’s short, 20 min sitcom, light and funny. I think I’ll be checking itout every now and then.

~I got some new books, including – YAY!!!!- the two that I’ve been looking for for quite a while already: “Fever, 1793” by Laurie Halse Anderson and “On the Jellicoe Road” by Melina Marchetta. So excited! I need the day to be at least 36 hrs long so that I could spend more time reading. Also, I need a separate room for a library, perhaps.

~Did some jeans shopping. I want to be ‘skin and bones’ skinny so, so much! It just sucks beyond imaginable how hard it is for me to find stupid jeans that would look good on me without making me look like a whale -____- I did find a pair of skinny jeans – yeah, haha, me and skinny – so it was a good thing because God help me, I am not doing anymore shopping anytime soon again.

~I did some good writing lately. Apparently, I should just keep on going with dark and torturous stuff, and there’ll be no writer’s block in it. Me and my twisted imagination…

~Currently reading “Winter Longing” by Tricia Mills about a girl whose bf dies in the airplane crash and she is learning to cope with it and start living all over again. It’s a bit YA in a selfish way – the way the girl keeps thinking that no one mourns enough and stuff, but all in all I quite enjoy is.

~And also I read “A thousand splendid suns” by Khaled Hosseini which is a complex and uneasy book to read and absorb. This book tells a story about several generations of Afgani women in XX century through the war times mainly. How they are treated, how they should subdue to their husbands, about what little freedom they had. Being quite a feminist myself – not in a die hard way but I do not think that women are lower than men in any way and has the same right for everything – it is not easy for me to contemplate the way the girls let themselves be treated like dirt. Yet, it’s a very interesting insight on how a nation tried to find happiness in little things. But it’s also very, very sad.

~Moving to a new office seems to be postponed for a few months, much to my relief. I absolutely dread the moment when we’d have to go there, so I am quite happy for now. Visited new premises with the boss last week. I think I still need some booze to even think about it, and that comes from a non-drinking person, which is somewhat scary. It’s quite horrible in any possible way – the building itself, the area, the location of the rooms and stuff.

~Which brings me to a rather uneasy topic of having to look for new job, perhaps. I know, I know, I’ve been taking and thinking about it for a few months already. I am a chicken like that. Just because I don’t like my current job doesn’t mean I am ready and willing to make changes in life *le sigh* I know it’s horrible, and it’s my life, and it’s just not right that I don’t enjoy it, but… well, it needs to be done and I know it. yet, it’s scary to think that I might exchange bad for the worse :(

I am not really good with decisions in that department so… I don’t know, I really don’t know.

~5 blessed days off. God, it was SO good. Can I have them back so that I could repeat them over and over again until I get sick of doing nothing? Yeah, like I’d ever get sick of that :P

~I kept on with yoga of course. If there is one thing I am addicted to as much as I am addicted to coffee, it is yoga. I mean the very atmosphere in the place… I think I’d go crazy a long time ago if I didn’t have my sessions :P

~Still reading “A place Called Here” by Cecelia Ahern. I try not to rush with it because I enjoy this book too much so far.

~TVD is getting seriously lame. I can barely make myself watch an episode from the beginning till the end. I mean it’s ok, but I turn it off then and it’s like nothing happened. I don’t care. IMO, the best season of this show was season 1 when the development of characters and the plot was well balanced. I know that back then they didn’t know if the show was going to be picked up and renewed for more seasons so the logically tried to put as much of awesomeness into 22 episodes. Then, apparently, they faced the horrible reality of having to come up with something new… and it all went downhill. Which is a shame, really :(

Please let me officially add Elena Gilber to my list of the most annoying TV characters, right next to Rory Gilmore and Joyse Summers – the other characters I basically can’t stand -____-

For now, the only thing I am really excited about is Alaric being a psycho serial killer. I hope they are not going to cure him in 1 episode and forget about it. I hope it is going to be a lot more complicated than that because I desperately need him to have some action instead of being a lame alcoholic.

~Speaking of Matt Davis – last Monday he started shooting his new TV show Cult in Vancouver. Can’t even being to say how excited I am! I mean it feels like something fresh and new, and overall something that needs to happen :)

~The only thing that kind of worries me at this very point is that Jenna (!!!) and Alaric are listed as characters that have to be on the TVD season finale. It is supposed to be a flashback episode about Elena’s life before vampires, hence Jenna’s appearance. A few days ago Ian Somerhalder tweeted about the start of the filming of the finale, saying something like – only 11 days left. Which now, I guess, means about one week until they are done with S3. Marguerite McIntyre (Sheriff Forbes) already tweeted about wrapping her part and leaving Atlanta.



Meanwhile, Matt Davis and Sara Canning are both in Vancouver, both filming their new projects (Cult and Primeval: New World)… and not going to Atlanta? Okay, Matt could have filmed his scenes before he left to go shoot Cult but Sara, as far as I know, hadn’t been spotted outside Van, so… no Jenna? I’m confused…

…a little. Because I have no idea how I feel about the whole flashback thing. I want her back (remember the girl that bawled for 14 hours and couldn’t watch the stupid 2x21 for 3 weeks without a breakdown? - but I want her back for real. I don’t want her to show up all cute and funny and all things perfect in some flashback and then be gone again. It would be like teasing us about what we could have had but never will. She’ll be there but then we’d also know that Jenna is not going to finish her paper and get her degree in psychology. She is not going to have a happy ending with Alaric. She is not going to become an awesome vampire like Caroline. No, we are going – maybe! – to see her for a couple of minutes at most, and then she is going to be gone, and probably never be back again, and it is going to get much worse.



So…. Is she coming back?

~I have watched “My Sister’s Keeper”, which basically broke my everlasting – mostly – rule to read the book before watching the movie. I chose to watch it though because I knew the plot and I knew it would about cancer, and I have recently read about similar thing – “The Fault In Our Stars” by John Green. And I wasn’t’ I could handle it properly.

So, movie it is!

It was good. And sad. And had some unexpected twists. And overall, it was very well done. Except that I am not a fan of Cameron Diaz, at all. But even despite that fact, I absolutely loved it.

Also, it was one of a very few films that made it impossible for me to take sides. I could understand why Anna didn’t want to keep being the donor of her sister – that she wanted to have a normal life, that it wasn’t her choice or wish or fault that she was basically made [genetically] to be compatible with her sister in order to try and save her life. But at the same time, she was a person with feelings and fears and longing for a normal life.

But who could blame the mother that wanted to save her other child? It’s true that Anna had to undergo some operations but they weren’t deadly or anything. Uncomfortable and complicated maybe but she’d live, and maybe it would give her sister some precious time as well. It wasn’t like the mother was sacrificing one child to save another because Anna’s life wouldn’t stop if she helped Kate.

Really, I hope I will never be in a situation like that. I have no idea what decisions I’d make and what choices would follow. A very sad movie, indeed.

Especially in the end when we find out that Anna refused to get operated because Kate asked her to do it – because she was tired of fighting and wanted it all to stop so that she could die in peace. An absolute must-see if you ask me.

~And now that we’re on movies… If I see or hear anything about The Hunger Games again, I swear to God I will start giving punches. My twitter timeline and my tumblr dash are so full of this movie that I’m going to puke soon. So, ok, it’s cool. Do you really have to tell about it a million times? Even the moron would get it after, like, 10 times. Before you asked, I’m not a fan of it. It’s just not my type of the genre. In general, I don’t care. The same way I don’t care about Twilight as long as ppl keep it away from me. I’m just sick of seeing The Hunger Games everywhere -____-

~I’m stuck in the fun land of progressive insomnia again. Hadn’t slept properly for a few days already, and saying that it sucks is a huge and unbelievable understatement X___x

~I am, for some reason, re-watching Buffy. Went through entire Season 1 over the weekend. I don’t know why but I used to absolutely love this show back in the day, so… You know, there are lots and lots of show out there right now. Yet, I can’t help thinking that none are or ever will be as good as, say, Buffy or Friends, or The X-Files. You can’t get tired of watching those. You just can’t, seriously. Also, I am such a sucked for Giles/Jenny Calendar pairing. You know, while everyone was going crazy about Buffy/Angel or Buffy/Spike, I was rooting for an old man and a cute computer science teacher.

~“Night School” is a ridiculous book. I was SO looking forward to reading it but it turned out being an utter disappointment. It’s just unbelievable how little you can trust review on Goodreads sometimes :((( I mean, it’s not like THAT horrible. Maybe I’d like it if I was 12 and never read anything really good before in my life. But with all this reading life experience and amazing books out there, it was just meh :P

~“A Place called Here” by Cecelia Ahern, on the other hand, is delight. I can’t say I’m a huge fan of hers but she does come up with some curious ideas. This book, for example, is about a place where the things go when they get lost. And not only things but people, too. And how it all works. I’m about halfway through it and it’s unbelievably enjoyable.

~The highlight – or, well, not so much – of my weekend was neutering one of my cats :((( My poor baby Romeo. My other cat, Charlie, got neutered right away when he was a kitten. And now it was time for Romeo because it got quite obvious that I am not going to breed him and it’s just torturous for him, all those hormones and such.

They shaved him, too :((( Now he is not only not… manly, but he is also bald. It wasn’t an easy day. I brought him home when he only started to wake up from the anesthesia. Obviously, he didn’t know what was going on. He was dizzy and somewhat wobbly when he tried to walk at first as if he was drunk. And he kept walking and walking because it looked like he wasn’t comfortable about the stitches and tried to look for a place that would make him feel ok. He ate though, which was good because the vet told me not to feed him for about 12 hrs before the operation + the time after, so it was about 20 hrs since he ate last.

About the bald part, he’s not, like, egg-bald, you know. his skin now is velvet with the shortest fur. Yet, he is visibly cold, and he was sleeping near/on me whenever he could as if for warmth. I let him have my bed and blanket this morning. I hope he’s going to be fine soon :( I know it’s for the best but it’s just sad to see him like that :(

Charlie – a huge buffalo of a cat – is a coward. I know Romeo probably still smells funny, of vet hospital and medicals, but Charlie had been hiding UNDER the bathtub ever since I brought Romeo home. I had to put the food for him there because he would refuse to come to the kitchen. It’s kinda funny, except I have no idea how he got there without getting stuck. He is ginormous :P

~On the bright side, I got myself a cool nail polish. Not my nails coz mine never look this good but the color is accurate :)



~TVD was pure awesomeness last week. For the flashback episode at least. I hate them. I hate them with passion, and mostly I just fast forward the flashback parts because they are lame. I was expecting more – of course – because I always expect more with this show and it fails me time after time. I expected to see more of Sage because Cassidy Freeman rocks, no kidding. Thus, I am super excited about this week’s ep – we’ll see her in present day, being present-day cool. As it was said, she was, apparently, Damon’s Lexi “inside out” – when Lexi made Stefan good, Sage made Damon bad, and I guess we all love her for it!

Most part of the episode was boring though was boring. The bonding, Rebekah snooping around, flashback hair – I miss Season 1 TVD when each episode was a small life that was beyond fantastic. They are really losing the grip. Moreover, if it wasn’t for Delena/Stelena, which I believe keep most of people interested, the show would totally rail a long time ago.

The twist with Alaric being a serial killer possessed by the ghost that, apparently, lives in his ring of not-dying was totally awesome. I knew it was him from the start but I totally didn’t expect the ring part. And I am super excited now! First, because we all know how Matt Davis loves playing evil characters. Just remember how much fun he had when he was Klaus! And second, because he finally got a decent scary storyline instead of just being a town drunk. And of course because while he is at it, he is not going to jump into the romance with Meredith -_____-

~Speaking of Matt Davis… He got the lead role on the pilot of the new CW show called “Cult”! Isn’t it awesome? I mean, okay, we still don’t know what it will mean for Alaric. For now, it is widely advocated that “Cult” would absolutely let Matt have enough time to make guest star appearance on TVD. We don’t know, however, if it means that they are going to keep him. This filming of the season is not over, a lot of things can happen. Bu in any case, even despite the fact that Alaric is my absolutely favorite character on that show, I am endlessly happy for Matt. Being a lean on a promising show is great thing for him as an actor, and if anything, he should now miss this wonderful opportunity. That said, I would bawl my eyes out if the kill off Alaric, and then I’ll turn on “Cult”.

A lot of people all over the web are now complaining about it. But come on! Don’t be selfish, guys! Right now, even with this cool psycho ring murderer storyline, Alaric is not THAT involved, and Matt deserves more, no?

To make this show even more awesome, Alona Tal is going to be on “Cult” as well :) Jo on Supernatural, in case you don’t know. She’s super nice and lovely, and I’m sure she’s going to have fun with Matt Davis and his craziness :)

~Matt is currently in Vancouver as they are supposed to start shooting the pilot of “Cult” today. Exciting, isn’t it? The very same Vancouver where Sara Canning is now shooting :Primeval: New World”! My Jalaric heart is happy again. Yeah, I’m crazy, so? It’s just so cool that they get to work in the same city, and they are already tweeting to each other *-*

~And now that we’re on it… Sara Canning needs some support! A few months ago she shot “Corvus”, a short neo-noir film about a detective that solves a mysterious murder of a young woman. This film is not in port production, and they need our help to finish it :) You can help funding it. Even small donations can help a lot! Or you can spread the word in case anyone else is interested in being involved :) So, please check the campaign page here: http://www.indiegogo.com/corvusfilm
Let’s make it happen, shall we? I am really excited about it, and I believe we will succeed :)

~Just working for 2 days, and then I have 5 days off. Woohoooo!! Like, 3 days off + weekend but what the hell, it’s almost like vacation :) That is, so far, the best part of my job, mostly. As many days off as I can possibly have in a short span of time. The job has been rather stressful lately, in a – I wanna kill someone or myself – kind of way. So yeah, some break would be welcome :P

~So far, yoga is the best thing I have in life. It’s not always exactly the way I want it to be but it is still the thing that keeps me together when I desperately want to fall apart and cry like a baby. Which happens a lot. Not the crying thing, the wanting one.

"The Help" by Kathryn Stockett
Finished it a couple of weeks ago. It was REALLY fantastic and I absolutely recommend to EVERYONE! One of the best books I have ever read in my life

~I AM SUCH UNBELIEVABLE IDIOT IT IS NOT EVEN FUNNY!!!! God, it really annoys hell out of me that whatever I do comes out wrong. It there some sort of diagnosis? Because I am pretty sure that if you open a dictionary and look up for a definition of “idiot”, you’ll see my face. And it would be one ugly photo as well *headdesk*

Ahem…

~So, 4 days off. I basically forgot where I work and what I do, which was really nice for once. The weather wasn’t all that welcoming so I slept a lot, minus having that one yoga class on Friday because there’s no way I’m ever skipping yoga unless I’m dying. Good times! Can I have more of those days with guaranteed salary?

~In other news, Sara Canning was cast as a lead in the new TV show “Primeval: New World” which is a spin off from the UK show “Primeval”. Currently, they already film it in Canada, and it should come out on UK and Canadian screen later in 2012. I’m super excited about it! Being a lead means she’s going to be in each of those 13 episodes of season 1, and maybe more if the show gets renewed for more seasons :) Yay? Hell, yeah!

Naturally, I am catching up with the UK “Primeval” because I am crazy like that, and it’s awesome lol So, the show is not bad. Season 1 practically rocked. Season 2 was utterly lame. But season 3 is quite cool so far so I’m looking forward to the rest of the episodes. It sucked that they killed my fave character in the end of Season 2 but what else is new? My faves always die. I quickly recovered from it because ep 1 of S3 started in the Department of Ancient Egypt of the national Museum in London which is, like, one of my fave places in the world, so it was cool. Minus the fact that I got lost there once but really, the place is HUGE.

So, yeah, this show is pretty good, and if you hadn’t watched it, I recommend checking it out. But for your own sake, skip S2 :P The other reason that makes me super excited about “Primeval: New World” is that it was created by Judith and Garfield Reeves-Stevens. The very same Judith and Garfield Reeves-Stevens that produced The Lost World – the show I was obsessed with for about 5 years in the beginning of 2000s because it was really awesome. Which makes me believe that “Primeval: New World” is going to rock, big time.

~Over my way too short days off I also developed an addiction to Cinnabon Rolls. Normally, I don’t eat pastry. Okay, scratch that – normally, I don’t eat. But they are so damn good! And, well, what’s the point of working out like crazy if you can’t reward yourself with some delicious goodies? I’ll try to keep it reasonable though :P but I don’t promise anything!



~My school thing is not working out. It was a reason of a huge and ugly break down on Saturday. I really feel bad about it. Empty and somewhat dead on the inside. I was so looking forward to it :( Not fair, you know. I was so looking forward to it but now my life doesn’t make any sense all over again. Can I just curl into a ball and sleep for the next 50 years?

~Finished “Safe Haven” by N.Sparks. Nothing changed about my feelings since the last post, I’ve got to say. I don’t regret reading it because I have a goal to read ALL of his books, and I am 3 books away from it, but unlike some of his books I re-read every now and then just for the hell of it, this one I will never pick up again. The best part about this book was the ghost of Alex’s wife that befriended Katie/Erin. But since we didn’t know she was a ghost until the very last page, it doesn’t really count. Much.

~Paley Fest is LA was really awesome. So great that they had live broadcast from TVD panel last night, I don’t remember the last time I laughed so much. It made me miss all the conventions that are just out of my schedule even more now but it was so awesome to listen to them all fool around and all :) I loved them referring to Matt’s twitter fanfics (because he is so cool like that!) And really, it was just great :)

~Watched “Serendipity” with mom on Saturday night. I remember the time when I was crazy about that movie, about the message that it carries – that even when some things are meant to be, it doesn’t mean they are meant to be right away. Bittersweet. I really should find a hobby and stop thinking about these things.

~Speaking of movies, I really want to tinfoil

~My life is so exciting I really don’t know what to do with myself these days :P

Hadn’t been updating lately, mainly because my life is nothing but boring routine day after day and there’s not much to talk about.

So, about the books… I am currently reading “Safe Haven” by Nicholas Sparks, and I am so damn disappointed I literary have no words to express it. Is it the same author that wrote “The Notebook”, “A Walk To Remember”, “A Bend In The Road”, “The Last Song” and “Dear John”? Okay, I know I have absolutely no right to judge or anything but hell, his writing got so lame! It’s dragged out and boring, and most importantly – so damn unrealistic! I mean, okay, I am not a romantic or anything else ridiculous but I always appreciate well developed build-up of romantic tension. In “Safe Haven” the I-love-Yous said after 2 days of dating because “He saw her and she was THE ONE” is just so sugary sticky they make me gag :P

I keep reading because I want to know how it may turn out, the back story and all, but it’s one of the worst books by Sparks I’ve ever read. Nothing can beat the horror of “At first Sight” of course, but “Safe Haven” comes close enough.

Also, I keep going with the Morganville Vampires series, and man, it’s so good that the rest of the books look too lame anywhere near it :P I am scared of the time when I finish all Morganville books I have :P No kidding.

This is it. I know, my life is so exciting I am practically jealous of myself :P Yes, I am definitely going to end up alone with 40 cats eventually

~My twitter timeline and tumblr dashboard are full of Oscars… can we have our normal life back now?

~As I mentioned on twitter on Saturday, another family night like that, and I am putting myself up for adoption. I need someone to cross me out of that family tree asap. Yep, I am talking about my grandma’s b-day, which was as horrible as I knew it would be.
When I was a kid/a teenager, I used to have two birthday parties (up until I stopped having them completely) – one for my family and another one for my friends. It made a lot of sense back then because having them together was nightmare. My friends would sit silent because they would be too shy to so much as open their mouths around my grandma and aunts and uncles, and said grandma and aunts and uncles would ask stupid questions making the whole process rather painful. So, it was decided to have a family day on the actual b-day, and a party for the friends – on the next day.
So, what was I talking about?
Ah, Grandma’s b-day… event. It would make so much sense to separate us. Not intentionally maybe but at least offer some options because I stayed at her place for about 3 hours, and all this time I had mental images of extremely violent actions against her friends. Can you imagine a bunch of 75+ olds reminiscing about their youth and making everyone younger than 50 very uncomfortable? It was unbearable. “Wanna have some wine?... What do you mean you don’t drink?” “Why don’t you eat meat (fish, eggs, etc.)?” “Are you on a diet?” Damn it, I don’t eat a lot of stuff because I HATE IT, ok? “Ah, I remember in 69—“ and then we enjoy a long story about something that happened 20 years before I was born. And they all drink. And then they started signing.
I sneaked out with my uncle (who dropped me off at home because it was too cold to walk) and thanked god for only having to endure it once a year. My cousin and his wife were smarter and dropped by the day before thus saving themselves. Lucky bastards.
If I die and go to hell (because I am not good enough for heaven for sure), I’d probably end up being stuck with my elder relatives and their friends for eternity.

~Ahem… thank god it’s done and over with.

~On Friday, my mom went with me to my yoga studio. She attended a different class because mine is kind of advanced and she wouldn’t handle it, and she actually enjoyed hers. We’ll give it a try and see in a few weeks if she feels better. She’s sitting a lot so her back and neck and shoulders need some gently work out. She was torn between a massage (because we have massage there as well) and actual classes and chose classes for a time being. Now we’re both yoga-freaks :)

~“The Name Of The Star” by Maureen Johnson was absolutely and utterly horrible. There are very few books I find bad enough to want to quit them, and this one was one of them. It was the first in a series that I am absolutely not going to continue. It’s too much of a torture.

~“The Help” by Kathryn Stocket, on the other hand, totally fascinated me. I love it so much I have no words to express it. This books follows two years of life of a small town Jackson in Mississippi in the 60s when the difference between black people and white people was so huge their lives barely crossed, save for the fact that every decent white family had black maids. They lived in different parts of town, had their own schools, shops, libraries, etc. and were as unequal as it was possible.
“The Help” is narrated by three characters – two black maids and a white woman – who decided at some point to make a difference. It wasn’t easy, and there were consequences all of them had to go through, but they were determined, and their actions changed the course of life of this small town.
I absolutely recommend this book to everyone. It’s nice and funny and sad and heartbreaking, and it teaches a few very valuable lessons about how to be a human regardless of your skin color. There were moments when I actually cried and moments when I wanted to tear some characters out of that book and slap them, but never ever was I indifferent.
There is a movie based on that book, and I can’t wait to watch it now. I was writing till I finish the book, so… it’s time :) And I mean it – if you hadn’t read it yet, you should go and do it now. It leaves something in your soul. It makes you want to become a better person.

~I got myself “Skins: The Novel”. It’s a book based on the TV series “Skins” that I totally adore, and about my fave second generation, too. The feedback on it is rather mild, if negative, but I am still curious to see if the book covers some gaps there are always left when you watch a TV show.

~Three more days without my boss. Trying to enjoy them as much as I only can. Namely, I wear jeans all the time instead of a suit and drink a lot of coffee barely bothering to check my tasks :))) Yeah, it’s gonna bite me in the ass soon but what the hell?

*My mom decided to try and go to yoga with me. not to my group because it’d kill her but to the one that works with the back and has a more therapeutic direction. Hope she’ll like it.

*I finished “Anna Dressed In Blood” by Kendare Blake and now I desperately want someone to make a movie based on that book because it’d be pretty awesome, I guess. The book wasn’t anything big and special and meaningful but it was a nice and fast read, and I can’t wait for the sequel :)

*Unlike “Anna Dressed In Blood”, “The Name Of The Star” that I started afterward and that had quite a good feedback on Goodreads is rather disappointing so far. It’s not like I expected a lot for it, but it’s not impressive at all. It feels like it was written by a 10 year old. It has no character development at all. It tells and now shows, and thus far I’m greatly disappointed by it. I am absolutely going to finish it though because it’s not THAT bad but it still kinda feels like a waste of time :P

*“The Help”, on the other hand, is amazing. I want to watch the movie as soon as I finish reading it :) I decided to put off the movie until then because I don’t want to ruin the impression or anything but I hope it’s gonna be good. So, “The Help” is the book about black people working for white people in the southern states of US in 60s when the difference between black and white was so huge they had different shops and never used the same plates and forks and spoons.
It’s rather weird to read about it. I cannot actually imagine people treating other people like garbage because of their skin color. You know, something you can’t exactly be blamed for because it’s not a choice, or a disease, and it’s a bit shocking. But then again, it’s a page in the history which I could like to know more about. The book is amazingly written and I utterly enjoy it.

*My boss is on vacation for 10 days, which means partly vacation time for me as well :) No, I still have to go to work and stuff but I managed to run some errands of my own in the morning time which feels great because don’t have to explain where I am and what I’m doing and all :)

*It’s still wintery cold though. We had some snow on Tuesday. Well, not SOME – I had to shovel my way to my car in the morning X____x But I hope it was the last time this season I had a pleasure of doing so :P I made some great pics of all that beauty – and the accidentally deleted them from my iPod. Yeah, speaking of dense -______________- because I’m that kind of person who trips over flat surfaces.

*Still desperately trying to change my hair color back to normal. I’ve been redheaded for about 5-6 years or so but now I need to have my natural color back. Problem is, it’s not mutual. My natural hair color doesn’t want to return. Whenever I try to dye it, the dye washes off and I’m redheaded again… I guess it’s only of the biggest wonders of the universe at this point.

*Also, my grandma’s b-day is coming, and I am totally planning to catch the flight to Alaska on Friday so that I could avoid this horror. Does anyone know any suicidal method that is not actually suicidal but that looks like one for a day or two? It’s kinda scary that I want to be ANYWHERE in the world except with my family for a few hours :P

~I am getting utterly lazy these days. The weekend was… lazy, as you might have guessed.

~I have watched “Pay It Forward” on Saturday evening. It’s quite an old movie that I somehow neglected to see, which is a shame. The movie is very sad though. I am normally a very non-crying person when it comes to fiction because I know it’s not real. But this time I bawled my eyes out because it was quite amazing and heartbreaking. So, the plot is – 11yr old boy gets an assignment at school to find a way how to make the world a better place. And he comes up with this idea that every person should do something good to three people, and those three people will then make something good to other three people each, and thus everyone will be making good stuff to everyone.
If didn’t go all smooth and perfect but eventually, the idea got picked up… and now please go and watch it because I don’t want to ruin it for you.

~I finished reading “Daughter Of Smoke And Bone” by Laini Taylor. Dubious feelings here. the books without a doubt was very good. I loved how fast-paced it was and how the characters were written and stuff. This was the first book in a series (the next one will be released sometime this year) so I am definitely going to get it and see where the story will go.
My problem with this particular part was that the last 1/3 of the book was too cheesy for my taste. It started out wonderfully, with a lot of action and descriptions of Prague. And OMG I LOVE Prague so much!! But then… as much as I love some whiff of romance in the books, the parts about Karou’s and Akiva’s feelings for each other were just yuck. The way they needed to kiss and touch and hold each other, and how their souls were signing to each other… it was so boring and annoying :( So, this is the only disappointment so far. I hope the following parts will be better in this department :)

~And I started “The Help” by Kathryn Stockett. Hadn’t gone far in it though, only a few pages but I love it already, and I hope it’ll remains as awesome as the first 10 pages :) Heard a lot about this book (and yeah, there’s a movie, too), so I am looking forward to reading it :)

~Also, I am currently reading “Anna Dressed In Blood” by Kendare Blake, and it’s quite impressive as well. And creepy. And a bit YA but it’s bearable. I didn’t know it when I first started reading it, but this book is also the first in a series, so if I like it, there’ll be something to look forward to :)

~On Friday it’ll be my grandma’s b-day, which means we’re going to visit her on Saturday (meaning – the whole family), and the very idea of it makes me want to go and jump off of the skyscraper :(((( I HATE family events with passion. They are boring, to begin with. They are an utter waste of time. All those people I don’t care about and who don’t care about me ask a million of stupid questions which no one cares about (How’s your job? Are you going to get married? You mom sure wants some grandkids. Why are you not eating meat again? Aw, come on, it’s only one time, the cows will never know!), and you have to wear a smile and be polite because smacking someone with a shovel is not socially acceptable. But it’s the waste of time that kills me the most. My grandma is retired, so she has tons of free time on her hands. For me, weekends are precious moments and spending a few hours with the family I don’t give a shit about is just unbearable. So… does anyone know a way to get crossed out a family tree?

~TVD was kind of ok last week. Not perfect but better than the ball episode. I am getting quite invested in Caroline/Klaus thing because they have one hell of chemistry. It sucks though that the Originals have left because they were quite a highlight of the show. I hope Elijah would come back because we sure hadn’t seen enough of them.

Elena is annoying, really. Where is the awesome girl from Season 1? She’s such a disappointment. Also, I hope Bonnie will finally lash out on her. I am not a fan of Bonnie or anything but I feel bad for her because she keeps having her life screwed because of Elena. Her grams died because of that spell to get Damon and Stefan out of that cave, now her mother is turned into a vampire. And Jeremy had left the town, and somehow Bonnie ends up being hurt. Again, I am not invested into her character too much but if I were her, I’d tell Elena to go sort out her problems on her own.

And seriously, can they please stop killing Alaric every moment? It’s not fun, and it boring. And he is in the description of the following episodes, which means Meredith didn’t kill him and he’ll be fine in the end. Maybe I’m the only one who feels that way but I’d like him to have an actual storyline because now he basically does nothing but die every single episode.

~My boss is on vacation for 10 days, so I can finally catch a breath. I have some stuff to do, of course. He never leaves without loading me with tasks, but it’s going to be calm, hopefully.

~Being an avid writer, makes me hate some writers who don’t finish their stories, abandoning them instead. And I had a strong policy about it myself. At least related to fanfics. But after my update of the story I had been working on for the past 8 months didn’t get a single review, I decided to quit. Not the story, just the updates.
Don’t get me wrong, I know that no one owes me anything, and I am not going to ask for feedback if people don’t feel like it. And specifically, I know that writing about Jenna and Alaric, especially now that Jenna is dead, is not going to be the most popular thing. But not getting ANY feedback is just too discouraging. It makes me feel like the worst writer ever. I know I am far from perfect but I somehow thought that there were people out there still interested in that storyline.
So, I made an official announcement so that people wouldn’t be waiting for new updates. And it got me outrages responses about how should keep on writing and how awesome I am and stuff. I’m feeling quite perplexed now. I am not the great reviewer ever but I know how much it means for the writer to know that his work is appreciated.
I don’t know what t do now. I am absolutely going to continue writing because I have some idea and I really want to see how they are going to work out. Maybe I will update some chapters in the end. But now I really need a break without that pressure of thinking if I am good or anything. Even if I’m not, I write because I can’t not write. Decisions, decisions…

~We had the least sunny weekend I can recall. It’s been dark like in the evening all the time ebacsue of low clouds. Which was good for sleeping :)

~I started watching “Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close” based on the book of Jonathan Safran Foer I’ve read recently. Hadn’t gone too far into the movie though coz I had some stuff to do but I can’t wait to finish it. And I already can say that I love the movie more than the book. I don’t know why, the movie is just a little less creepy… so far. I’ll let you know that I think about it when I finish.

~Speaking of books, I am totally in love with “Daughter of smoke and bone”. It’s wonderful and interesting, and it’s about PRAGUE!!! I *heart* Prague :)

~I got two more books by John Green – “Paper Towns” and “An Abundance of Katherines”, although after I finish “The Fault in Our Stars”, I am planning to start “Unbearable Lightness” by Portia Di Rossi. Been wanting to read it for quite a while, sucker for an eating disorders books that I am. Hope it’s good.

~Basically, I was doing nothing but reading these past few days. Which is not a good thing because I start feeling lazy and stuff… but not bad either. And with this weather, maybe it’s the best thing to do.

~New TVD was utterly boring and downright ridiculous. IDK… this show was super awesome during season 1, mildly good during season 2 and totally ridiculous during season 3. The best thing about it so far is Klaus and Elijah (including Klaroline *-*).

The rest is… the same. It’s always the same all the time. Elena is being a martyr. Elena doing something stupid. Elena Elena Elena… I wish they would make her a little more likable. And not whiny. And not – “I promised not to do it but I am going to do it anyway so that half the people I know were in danger or nearly killed”. Alaric’s storyline is only drinking and dying by far, like they can’t find a better use for his character, which is annoying as hell seeing as how he’s basically useless. I’m getting scared they might kill him off because they can’t figure out a decent plot for him.

Yeah, I am watching it again. I just mute Alaric/Meredith scenes together. And for the first time in the last 6 months, I am kind of sort of glad Jenna is not on the show. I miss her like crazy, and I still think they could have made her a good character – human or vampire. But at the same time, I know that Sara would have been criminally underused again, and it would keep her from all the projects she’s currently a part of, and TVD is getting stupid anyway, so she’s probably better off without them.

~I found this book survey on Tumblr and decided to do it :)

(  Book Survey  )

Um, I probably wouldn't invite dead people. They would creep me out

Living... Matt Davis and Sara Canning, of course. Because they are fun, and it'd be cool to hang out with them. Danishka Esterhazy, a Canadian filmmaker and screenwriter because I think she is really cool, and I like how she supports women in TV and film industry. John Green because I am currently obsessed with his books.

I know it's a shallow answer, but I don't feel deep and complicated today :)

* I think I am officially having some sort of a winter avitaminosis. Or chronic tiredness, or something else similarly exciting X___x I want to sleep all the time, and having insomnia doesn’t help the matters. Ad during the yoga classes I feel dizzy because even the slightest physical activities seem to be too much :( And no, coffee doesn’t help a bit :P

* I think I have already mentioned numerous of times how much I love Nicholas Sparks and his books and how he writes human feelings and emotions and stuff. I hadn’t read all of them, but I think I crossed that 80% mark. He had good books, he had so-so books, but never before had I actually abandoned a book because I wanted to smack the main characters’ heads against the wall.
I did, however, dropped out of reading “At First Sight”. This book is a sequel to a slightly mysterious/paranormal story “True Believer” that I picked up some time last summer. It wasn’t brilliant but it was okay, and the mystery was great because normally N.Sparks’ books are life/romance thing. So yeah, I think I liked it. “At First Sight” though was a huge disappointment from the start. Okay, the disappointment probably settled in at the end of “True Believer”, but I think I kind of hoped it wouldn’t be transferred into the next book. So, anyway, after a few pages I couldn’t stand the suffering, and “At First Sight” went to the never-to-be-read list.

* I really, really like “The Daughter of Smoke and Bone”, though. I wish I had more time for reading it but so far it’s really interesting. It’s fantasy/paranormal story, and it’s beautifully written. I know it’s the first book in the series, so I’m reluctant to read it faster because I know that the next one will only be released in September, but I do recommend it if you like that kind of stuff :)

* Also, I am now reading “The Fault In Our Stars” by John Green, and I secretly wish that every single author in the world was as amazing as him. The book is sad and funny at the same time. It’s about the girl with stage 4 cancer, and her struggles, and yet it is full of witty comments and optimism even when there is no hope. I can see a flood of tears coming at some point. Not yet, but they probably will.

* My life is boring, not much to share these days. It’s all about work and yoga and sleep and lack of sleep and my worries about school because I want to go so badly … so, stay tuned :)

~It has been scientifically proven that a person will die faster from lack of sleep than from lack of food and water (namely, in about 10 days), which basically makes me a living dead because I slipped into insomniac patterns again X___x I have no idea why it happens (aside from, IDK, having all that coffee maybe :P). It sucks, and no, I cannot possibly cut down on coffee because I can’t live without it -___- Vicious circle :P

Aaanyway….

~Last Saturday I finished reading “Looking For Alaska”. 1. I hated it for being so short! How can a book so awesome end so fast? I don’t get it, and my very first instinct was to start reading it again right away. 2. I hate myself for not picking it up earlier because now I have no idea how I even lived without having this book in my life before. I mean, seriously? 3. Cold hearted bitch that I am, I nearly sobbed my eyes out.
I know that books are subject to personal tastes and preferences and stuff… but this book is, like, a must-read for anyone and everyone.
My next one will be “The Fault In Our Stars”, also by John Green, and I see floods of tears coming

~Went to the mall yesterday and got myself a new jacket and a very beautiful hair clip :) Happy bunny

~My official admission papers arrived from school on Saturday morning. This is getting serious O.o I mean I still can’t believe it actually happened and all, but seeing that envelope with the campus plan and my acceptance letter and signed contract… To say that I’m freaking out is to say nothing :P

~I’m back to watching TVD again. As a truce, I decided I would mute all Alaric/Meredith scenes together, especially the romantic ones. But now that Elijah is back, and so are all of his siblings, I’m quite hooked on finding out what’s going to happen next. Also, they really need to cut down on killing Alaric all the time,. First, I’m losing 10 years of my life every time I see him bleeding [granted, I knew he was in the 3x15 description so I knew he wouldn’t die but still! And second, it’s getting really old. Of course between him dying and him hooking up with ‘dirty little doctor’ (I’ll never be able to thank Damon enough for these words), I’d still choose dying, but it’s annoying that they can’t come up with a decent storyline for him :P

~Speaking of TV shows… SARA CANNING WAS ON SUPERNATURAL!!!! *-* It’s kind of really cool how Lauren Cohan got to guest star on TVD and now Sara was on SPN, and my imaginary life is basically complete lol Now they really need to swap again, and bring Lauren back to SPN, and Sara to TVD, respectively :)

Ahem… This episode was AWESOME! Well, not only because of Sara (only 80% because of her lol). That steamy hot scene in the beginning… I loved it how Carina McKenzie tweeted something like: And now if some fictional universe Alaric Saltzman is very jealous xD
Because he totally should be. because Dean hot what he didn’t, and it was one hell of a scene, too!
And OMG she’s so pretty and perfect and all things flawless… You’re entering a crazy fangirl zone here.

I mean, just look at her! She’s so pretty!


Poor Sara. I totally spammed her twitter TL during the episode but – but AUNT JENNA WAS TRENDING WORLDWIDE!!! Which proves how much Jenna is missed on TVD :((( Good thing is that Lydia (Sara’s character) hadn’t been killed off on SPN so there is always a chance for her to come back in that case, which I am going to hope for madly :P

It was a bit unexpected to see her being some sort of a supernatural being though because initially she was supposed to be human, and even though after that promo with her getting pregnant and giving birth within 1 day it was clear that something was wrong, I still thought that it wasn’t her fault, that it was some spell or smth :P

As for the rest of the ep… it was sad how Sam killed the girl in the end when Dean was clearly hesitating. And even though she was supernatural, she was still his kid, and maybe Sam could have tried to understand that and maybe tried to find a cure for her or whatever so that she didn’t need to kill :P it was really, really heartbreaking…

In non related news, I am a horrible, horrible writer. My fic is so overdue it’s just unbelievable. I wish I had time/inspiration/strength to dedicate more time to it. I really hate myself for not paying more attention to it because it really is one of a very few things for me that actually keeps me sane. So, maybe the fact that I don’t write all that much these days explains why I am gradually going crazy…

~Totally random… cuddling with my cat Romeo :)

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~I have always been an avid reader. Maybe not as much as a kid as I was in my teens, but I did read quite a lot compared to most people I know and knew back then. Yet, I am now starting to realize that maybe I’ve been reading the wrong stuff all that time. Like, when someone is asking me “Have you read […]?” And I am like, “Um… no?” And I always have a feeling that the book they are asking about it awfully important, and it HAS to be read, and I am an imbecile not even having heard of it.

So, I am now desperately trying to catch up with all the “right” stuff that just HAS to be on everyone’s read list, as well as keeping up with the stuff I keep hearing about, and it’s crazy. I kind of think about quitting the job in order to keep up with my list X___x And I know I’m going to be disappointed with myself if I don’t reach the end of it at some point.

~Speaking of, I finished “Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children.” Where the hell has this book been my whole life? It’s YA and it’s very interesting, and it is full of very interesting authentic photos. It was not exactly what I thought it would be when I first heard of it, but it is a definite must read if you like adventures and mystery and stuff.
My only issue with this book is the ending because it was kind of incomplete in a way and I NEED to know what’s going to happen next, although I doubt I ever will. But in any case, I enjoyed it immensely, and I regret not coming across it earlier.

~And I started “Looking for Alaska” by John Green [yes, it’s just another new book I wasn’t supposed to buy because now I am book-broke], which I have heard about a lot, and which is yet another book I have no idea I haven’t started reading sooner. So far, I totally love it, and I really need to have a couple of days off to finish it. It is what I hate most about life – wasting top much time on some crap and then missing out on really important things. Like reading.

~I have a talk with my study advisor today. Well, at night. In the middle of the night. Coz this is how time difference works :P I did enjoy the conversation though. I have 2 of them – Scott and Tracie. Talked to Tracie, and it was lovely. And the more I talk to them, the more I think that I might actually go there, which I refuse to believe in for now…

~Crazy week at work. Not that I complain, it helps the time fly faster, which is always a good thing. I missed one yoga class but I’ll try to make up to it next week

* It’s finally getting warmer… as in -10 compared to -25. It’s scary, huh? But at least I stopped wanting to go to the work in my ski suit.

* Which is a good thing because when it was -25, I had to start my car every 2 hours so that it would warm up and not freeze, including nights. I was literary sleeping with the car keys in my hand and every time I woke up, I had to hit the start button (it was all the result of my car only starting after a few minutes of trying one morning, so I decided to be precautious).

* Speaking of car, because of the cold something happened with my headlights, and the right-hand tail blinker is out :P Which seriously sucks coz if I get stopped by the cops, I’ll be in trouble for breaking safety rules. Who cares that’s it’s damn freezing?

* Remember me babbling about the school and stuff? Well, I got i… and I am so freaking out now :P I didn’t quite expect it, and really, it’s freakish.
It doesn’t mean I’m going, anyway. I mean being accepted is one thing, having your whole life turned upside down is another. I’d have to quit the job, to move. Not to mention the tuition fees and lots and lots of stress. I want to do it though… I’ll see :P

* I got more books yesterday. I really have to do something about it because I spend so much money on them and I really don’t have that much time for reading… OH, LOOK, NEW BOOK!! [that’s how it works]



So, additionally to those 8 books I hadn’t touched yet, I now also have:
A Hidden Fire and This Same Earth by Elizabeth Hunter (books 1 and 2 of the series)
The Help by Kathryn Stockett
Winter Longing by Tricia Mills
and
Thunderhead by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child

And I am DYING to read them all at once :P

* And speaking of… I found this nice book meme which I decided to do because it’s been ages since I did any memes :)

(  Book Confessions:  )

PS Dear God, thank you for Florence + The Machine

So... only three weeks later, I finally finsihed my Jalaric video. I hadn't been doing much of them lately, what with the lack of video material as well as any inspiration. But I do love that song, and it somehow seemed quite appropriate. And here we are :)

~ I am officially a very unqualified nurse from now on lol I have never made intramuscular injections before in my life, and if anyone told me a week ago I’d have to, I’d die, perhaps. Mom survived my first attempt though. Only 3 more left, and I hope I didn’t do anything wrong :P [since she refuses to move the party to the hospital]

~ I have a confession… I am a book-o-holic, and I don’t want to be cured. Well, maybe a little seeing as how I spend more money on books than on anything else in my life. I have so many books I hadn’t read yet, and absolutely no time to do so, and I keep buying more and more books… Like I got “The Lucky One” and “Safe Haven” by Nicholas Sparks and “Chasing Fire” by Nora Roberts yesterday, and my to-buy list keeps growing faster than my paychecks come along :P

~ Speaking of… Finished “The Search” by Nora Roberts yesterday. It wasn’t as good as the books I keep re-reading every now and then, and it lacked the intrigue, and the ending was kind of cramped and took, like, 2 sentences, but it was a nice reading anyway, and I honestly can’t complain. It’s true that some of Roberts’s books are better than the others, but, well, it’s the same with every author, right?

~The only good thing about holidays being over is that most of the TV shows are finally back from the breaks as well :) Gotta admit that lack of anything decent of TV is the only down side of this perfect time of the year. I’m really ecstatic about Revenge, 2 Broke Girls and Supernatural are already airing new eps, and most of my other faves will return in coming days. Not to mention that Sara Canning is going to take part in SPN 7x13 in two weeks, which is like – wooohoooo! [excuse me for being overly crazy here] ;)

~I spent most of the weekend working on my TVD video which is kind of like a spoiler/teaser for my fanfic. Anyway, it’s going slow coz (1) my computer is slow when it comes to Sony Vegas and (2) I have zero talent/imagination when it comes to making the videos. Not that it ever stopped me before or anything :P I hope to finish the clips line-up by the end of the week and hopefully move to effects and rending next weekend. Sadly, on the working days I have only nights deal with it, so it kind of delays the process :P

~On the bright side – which has nothing to do with anything mentioned above, I’m just random like that – I am happy to announce that I am practically best friends with my iPod. It’s awesome! I had to remove iTunes from my desktop computer coz it’s rather old and it was really struggling with this program, and install it on my netbook instead. It’s much newer and thus better adapted. It was a little bit annoying to have to copy certain stuff from one to another but I’m happy that at least my iPod is fine and the initial problems were mainly caused by the old OS and not by the iPod’s defects or anything :) *happy bunny* And I really love the quality of music and videos, so yeah – happy, happy, happy :)

~On Saturday, I have finished “Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close” by Jonathan Safran Foer. I really have conflicted feelings about this book. From reviews on Amazon and Goodreads I definitely expected something entirely different. There were things I loved about this book and thing I hated. Despite what everyone was saying, I did not “bawl my eyes out”. Yes, it was sad. Yes, it was touching. But it wasn’t THAT sad or THAT touching. I do recommend it. I loved the style and I loved certain quotes. I did not like the fact that certain characters obviously needed a serious psychological help and yet never turned for it. It wasn’t a light and easy read, and I am almost certain I will never open this book again.

~After “Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close” I started “Practical Magic” by Alice Hoffman. You know that movie with Sandra Bullock and Nicole Kidman? Well, it was based on the book. I didn’t know that until recently [shame]. Can’t say much about it yet since I am only a few pages in but it is a rather nice reading so far.

~I am not setting any reading goals for 2012 because sometimes I have tons of time for reading and sometimes it is limited to only a few pages a day. It’s not a race and I don’t want to make it one. I have 10 news books and I’m getting 5 more soon, so I’ll start with them and see where I can get in 12 months :)
Tricky question though – is I started the book in 2011 bit finished in 2012, should it be considered a 2011 or 2012 book? I didn’t include the books I started but not finished in 2011 in my 2011 list but then it is not entirely fair to include them in 2012 list either since I read only half of them in 2012 :P

~Still hadn’t heard anything from the schools. It’s probably too early, I know :P But I am nervous as hell :(( It’s that sort of situation when I just need to know the answer, yes or no, or I’ll go crazy :S

~Sneaked this meme from irsandyberg :) I wanted to do some 2011 meme but didn’t find a good one, but this one is quite perfect!

( 2011 meme )

* First TVD–less week in a couple of years. Feels weird. I believe I already mentioned that I might quit this show. Well, here I am, doing just that :P It was a nice ride, I enjoyed it, but now it’s getting a bit more torturous for my liking. Yeah, I already experience some nice hate today so feel free to join the party.

I don’t want and not going to watch Alaric moving on, and I do not want to see Jenna’s replacement. This is in no way a Torrey DeVito bashing. I like her, she’s nice and I think she’s a great actress. It is more about writers and what they do with the characters and the plot. Also, I barely care about the rest of the storyline, like Delena freaking annoy me, big time. That’s why I don’t think I’ll be sticking around… sad, yeah, and I’ll miss it, but it’s getting too stressful for my liking.

* My mom had an operation today *worried* and I was practically neurotic until she was out of the surgery room. She’s texting now though, so I assume it went well *sigh of relief* Going to pick her up tomorrow, hopefully.

* The news not related to anything – Mom got me an iPod for Xmas, expect that I got it only yesterday. It’s a belated gift but only coz it took some time to arrive. So, now I am officially “appled”, for the first time ever. I’m not a huge fan of anything i-related so I managed to avoid it for the past few years but when my mp3 player died and I failed to find a decent one (and I don’t really like listening to the music on my phone)… well, I am not going to complain about having an iPod… Instead, I’m going to complain about being too dumb to not understand how to use it X____x For one thing, iTunes make my computer super slow, and on top of that, it refuses to sync with iPod, and I have absolutely no idea why :S I tried a few things (update, restart, different USB ports), and if nothing helps, I’ll try to check if it will work with my netbook (it’s got newer version of software). I hope it’s some technical problem, not the defect of iPod :S So far – hugely disappointed :(((

So, Happy New Year? :)



I hope all of you had a fantastic time these past few weeks with Christmas and New Year and overall season of joy and happiness :)

In my first post of 2012 I would like to sum up my 2011. It wasn’t a perfect year, it had its ups and downs, but it definitely was a good one and I am grateful for absolutely everything that happened to me in the past 12 months. Well, for the good stuff mostly, but I guess for some negative things as well seeing as how they were the life lessons I hopefully learned from.

( 2011 round-up )

Yeah, the year wasn’t that eventful by the looks of it, but I can’t complain, it was a nice one :)) And I have high expectations for 2012, and I am ready and willing to work for them to come true :) Okay, I doubt that spending 4 days off in PJs sitting before my computer could be qualified as a productive star lol But it’s only a start!

( 2012 round-up )

Well, since I am in a writing mood but I can’t think of anything to write about since I don’t have any decent news atm (and those that I have you don’t want to hear), I decided to do a 2011 TV meme :)

( 2011 TV meme )
Better go back to work now :)

~ The weekend was pretty much uneventful, more or less. With my mom being on a business trip, my Christmas consisted of frozen dinner and doing nothing. Which wasn’t bad at all :) We’ll probably do something together next weekend when it’s NY’s, but since I’m not a holiday person, I don’t really care.

~ I asked for Matt Davis for Christmas. I take it Santa lost my letter :P Going to file a complaint about the services. You know, spending the whole night waiting for them to show up and then getting nothing [but Matt’s awesome Christmas story on Tumblr] is kind of upsetting :P

~ Last Friday I went to yoga – even though it wasn’t my yoga day – to attend the class of the teacher I used to go to last year. Naturally, I LOVED it, so I guess I’ll be having 3-4 classes of yoga instead of my regular 2 from now on so that I could attend both my old teacher’s classes and the current one’s O.o Let’s see how long it’ll take me to die…

~ I am totally into “Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close” by Jonathan Safran Foer. I have no idea if I actually like this book because it is weird on many levels but I totally can’t put it down. That’s… a good sign, right? Also, I need to buy more books X__x I don’t have nearly enough time to read as much as I’d want to, but that’s totally not the point :P

~ And… Highlight/heart attack/squee moment/total freak-out of the weekend was…. [drumroll]… Sara Canning retweeting my tweet!!!!!!! I have no words to describe how it felt to get the message in my inbox saying that she retweeted it. I thought I was dreaming. Then I thought I died. Then I thought I’d actually die from hyperventilation. I mean, it’s Sara Canning, the biggest and craziest girl crush of my life lol She’s the sweetest, nicest, and the most amazing person in the universe, and I can go on and on and on :P

Sorry, major fangirl freak out. It’s amazing everyone survived it coz I had spent, like, 3 hours screaming in ultrasound and another 5 just staring that this email :P My imaginary life is getting pretty awesome :) Now I only need to kidnap Matt Davis and marry him and have 3 kids to make it complete and perfect… ahem, what were we talking about? Anyway, it was the BEST Christmas gift/surprise ever, so I totally consider it being the perfect holiday :) I am absolutely saving this message for the rest of my life, and I need to print screen it too. Crazy? Me? Never!

~ In [kind of] related news, how can I even enjoy the holiday season when all of my shows are on hiatus and there is nothing decent on TV these days? It totally kills the whole point of holidays whatsoever.

~ I am thinking of maybe deleting my FB account. I hadn’t done it yet coz I have lots of friends there who don’t have twitter or other social network accounts, and I might lose touch with them if I actually delete it. But I don’t really use it anymore :P And it annoys me a lot. Like, you can’t post a comment on someone’s status without being totally spammed by comments of other people. However, if you disable this function, you may never see anyone’s response to you, specifically. At the same time, FB keep “upgrading” and getting even more stupid :P I’ll think about it…

~ And… isn’t it nice to wake up and find a cute guy in your bed? That's my baby Romeo ♥