Let me introduce myself:
myroadtonowhere - aka garfield85
Somehow it turned out that the time came for a fresh start in life, so I decided to start with new LJ account :)) I will keep both of them working for a while gradually moving all my activity from the old to the new one.
This LJ is going to stay open for as long as it is convenient for me and my friends.
Nadin ;)

Just to make my return more interesting, I’ll tell you the Embarrassing Story of the day *yep, I have them almost every day, now*

So, there is one guy in the office and I kinda like him. He’s nice and funny and we chat and flirt a lot but I guess it’s nothing serious or something. Just give me some time to understand why his presence makes my knees weak and I become very silly and giggly and such stuff :P Anyways, I decided to ask him out. Not like on a date, but just to have a cup of coffee or something and talk outside the office and his car. *Can somebody tell me why did I do in the first place?? O.o*

Mostly we chat in ICQ, and when he wrote me something, a morning greeting as far as I remember, and we had a small talk, I offered him to go to 2012 with me if he wanted. He said he was busy on the weekend. *oh, sorry, I should have said – 2 embarrassing stories. This was the first as I usually don’t ask anyone out if I’m not sure in positive reaction* Well, we turned it into a joke.

After that I wrote to my friend *yep, still in ICQ* and asked what she thought about it and if it meant he turned me down. She asked what exactly he said, so to be exact I copied some parts of my conversation with him, pasted them in the WRONG window – and sent it to HIM!! I guess he was surprised… And I wish I could turn back time and actually delete everything starting from the movie question :P

The only thing that made it look a little better – in the very beginning of our friendship I once got a message from him about myself O.o The one that he wrote to his friend and sent to me XD I guess I can call us even now XD

Well, here I am again :)) No, I didn’t mean to leave you for so long but I just have a rather crazy life at the moment. Most of time when I post smth on FB or Twitter, I do it from the office, and some really mean people block LJ there :P So yeah, I am kinda cut off most of fun O.o

But I promise, I’ll try to come here more often :))

So, the news:

1. It’s almost winter here. We had snow once and it melted away a couple of days later but still, it got pretty cold ever since.

2. The last episode of Spn nearly killed me. It was really heartbreaking and hard to watch, especially the death parts. SPOILERS! I was sorry to see Jo die. I never shipped Dean/Jo but their last kiss almost made me wish they had their last night on earth or smth. Bobby burning down the photo also was a very sad moment. He erased whatever physical memory they had of Ellen and Jo. And okay, hunters are not supposed to be attached to people and all but it was really sad and teary all the same. I’ll leave out the coming of Death part I guess. It was just too huge to fully understand it now. Can’t wait for more!

3. I have a bang now :)) Asked to cut it the last time my hairdresser came, so now I look a little different. The picture is somewhere on FB. It took some people a couple of days to get used to it. it took me a week to understand that the person in the mirror is me XD

4. I am reading D.Brown’s “The Lost Symbol” now, and it’s nice.

All in all, this is nothing, nothing really new, but time flies faster than I can imagine and it is sort of frightening.
On the other hand, on weekends it crawls. We’re having a 3-day weekend starting tomorrow, and even today they let us go rather early, some time after lunch. I’ll go crazy, I’m sure :P No, I still don’t like my job but when I am in the office and have smth to do, it sort of makes the vacation seem closer, and this is what I am practically living for, mostly.

More updates to come soon!

Dancing is my passion, and it had been this way for the last 10 years or so. It is life, and freedom, and natural beauty. There are many things in life that I could give up and go away without ever looking back. But there is hardly anything that could make me give up on dancing on my free will because it one of the few things that makes me who I am.

Okay, enough of being so boring. I just wanted to show you a very beautiful video. This little piece is a performance by the most popular Russian dance-group called “Todes”. Honestly, they are the gods for all the dancers around here and sometimes I think I’d give anything to be one of them. They are great! They do the things I can’t even imagine. Not even sure some of them are possible lol



Don’t pay attention to the lyrics. It is in Russian. But they only repeat over and over again “Only for you, only for me”. And no, not all of their performances are that sensual, but I just see the love itself in the way they dance this one :))

PS I feel bad for not being able to come here more often and read all the news and comment and everything, and I swear to God I’ll try to hang around LJ more often. Promise!

In the office where I work now I have a couple of nice guys who I share common interests with. Like taste in music and movies and some other stuff. The one who is my current “love interest” or something like that is among them as well, for better or for worse.

So, a couple of weeks ago his friend called me to join them at the cocktail party, if I was “okay with spending the evening with the guys only, of course”. Sure, why wouldn’t I be okay? Assuming I knew them well enough to be sure that everything was going to be fine.

Of course, I had a couple of doubts, like how I was going to get back home in case the whole thing ended late or if they’d be okay with me not drinking as I don’t drink. The event was planned for Friday night and I had a couple of solid panic attacks during the day. I decided not to take my car since I didn’t know the area where we were going to very well, first. And second – again about the whole thing ending up too late – I don’t like to even think about driving when I am tired. I lose concentration easily.

My friend Katie offered me to refuse to go, but it seemed to me a little childish, so I went after all.

And it was really good :)

There were 4 guys from my work *out of 6 who actually wanted to go*, 3 of them I knew pretty well and another one was harmless enough not to bother. We listened to some good music and had lots of fun. I was absolutely okay with being the only girl as they treated me like a queen and always asked if I was comfortable and all. They made some alcohol cocktails for themselves and banana milk-shakes for me. Okay, once “my” guy *forgive me for calling him mine when he’s not even anywhere close to mine but it helps with connotations* added some Cointreau to it – on my permission as it smelled okay – but I didn’t feel it, apart from the slight orange flavor. They told me about that jazz concert I missed – yeah, the one that I lost my ticket to :P Luckily, it turned out that I didn’t miss much. They said it wasn’t really good so I was glad I didn’t go after all, partly because I knew I’d feel totally worn out on Friday and probably wouldn’t go to the party.

I didn’t stay with them for too long, maybe only till midnight because I started to fall asleep, what with the dim light and music and all “end of the week” exhaustion. So, I called myself a taxi and “my” guy and his friend walked me to it. He kissed me on the cheek and told it was nice to have me around, which wasn’t called for and hence it was a little surprising in a very pleasant way. Especially when I don’t think that he actually has a gf :P It made me a little light-headed and reminding me that it wasn’t a really good idea to start anything with someone I work with as it could get a little complicated.

Still, I feel rather honored for being called to their party as I know that I’m the only girl they’re friends with in the office, and I’m working there for only a couple of months so far. So I guess I can call it a good start. Hope it didn’t bother them to have me there since I know that I was a new person and they didn’t know me very well yet, and also it must have limited the variety of topics for their conversations some of which couldn’t take place with the girl being in the company. But it was good :)))

The only thing that I can’t get out of my head and that I’m not sure I can ask is that whose idea it was to call me in the first place???

Okay, I’ve always been a little different but come on! Isn’t the best thing ever – to be different from the rest? *from the most, more like it*

The reason why I’m writing all of this is that I got asked a really weird question last Friday and for the first time if ages I wondered what impression I was/am making on people. But when one of my colleagues asked me – Are you Satanist? O.o *yep, just like that* I had my jaw dropped to the very surface of the table I’ve been sitting at.

So yeah, I’m wearing black most of time because I like it and I like the way I look in black. Also, I’m wearing pentagram necklace and earrings and Ankh cross (Egyptian cross), and my computer desktop freaks out most of people *guilty, but I just like it* But I never thought that all together it looks like I belong to some dark cult.

No, I’m not going to change a piece of myself, it’s just an observation, but still… very interesting one. Yay to being different!

Note to self – if anyone starts getting on my nerves, I could use my image if a witch or whatever and tell people I’d curse them if they don’t leave me alone XD

PS On Friday evening my "love interest" with a nice name Konstantin *yep, like in the movie* drove me to the gym again, and he was actually flirting with me O.o But it's not the point. The point is, many people had seen us together already, including his boss and most of his friends, and he doesn't seem to care much. I'm even more confused than before.

I know I haven’t updated much lately, or at all. Hell, I haven’t shown up in ages *feels ashamed* But my life is so crazy…

Well, decided to write smth today because really, I just have to. Yep, being unlucky probably has the limits… but I don’t see them anymore lol that’s what made me think so:

There’s a guy in the office who I chat with a lot and we have a lot in common. He’s not a love interest just a nice person to talk to, and we really have a lot in common. And he’s going to jazz concert next week with some friends. So, he called me to join and even if I’m not the biggest jazz fan, I thought it would be not bad. To go out and have fun. Such stuff. Mainly because I found out that the “love interest” has a girlfriend *sniffles* We decided to go to the music shop to get the tickets in the lunch break and we went… and guess what? You know, I’m unique. No one else but me could possible ever lose the ticket on the way back to the office O.o Yes, that’s what I did. And I didn’t care as much about the tickets which cost about $20 as about the impression that I made *blushes* I could have lost me head hadn’t it been attached to my neck *shakes head*

In the end we had a laugh and he offered to buy me another ticket but I took it as a sign and told that maybe I shouldn’t go there at all. See, I believe in signs.

Than… back from the lunch… the one that is “love interest” contacts me by ICQ and asks if I need a ride back home O.o Sure honey. What am I supposed to do about it now? *sure thing I agreed :P His gf is not my problem anyway* Funny, huh?

Then… What? You think that’s all? Nah, that would be too easy LOL We have a rule in the office – the workers are not allowed to bring their personal equipment to he office, like laptops and PCs and stuff like that. But one guy’s gf had a problem with her personal PC and asked him to take a look, and those two smarties brought it to the office. So fine, you can bring IN whatever you want. The problem usually is to bring anything OUT. To do so you must have a signed permission with the serial number of whatever you bring out and other info. Hell, I thought I’d kill them. I had to fake the permission as it wasn’t the office computer because the only other option they’d have if I didn’t do it was to either leave it in the office for good or to dissemble it.

Will be back with more fun from the office lol

Missed you all :)))

Supernatural season 5 premiere was abso-bloody-lutely awesome!! I was screaming and noooo-ing and squee-ing so loud that I’m sure all the neighbors are away of the show and its details now :))) The episode was epic and really great and it was worth every moment of waiting. And now I wanna get myself a time-machine and jump from Thursday to Thursday. Not I can’t for more… and more and more lol And Dean <333 Man, I love him <333

Random update. My Sat dance classes started again. We stopped them for summer because a lot of people were spending the weekends hiking or traveling or going to the beach but now that the weather became cool and summer vacations are over we decided to get back to the usual schedule. So, strip dancing… we started with the poles *sighs* I don’t like poles, and sure thing I stretched my shoulder :S It hurts pretty badly and I don’t know how am I going to sleep :-// But still I’m glad that now my weekends will be a little more active and interesting, what with the lack of any social life lol

Going to cook mushroom and pumpkin pie tomorrow *yummy* The idea of washing the kitched afterwards is rather dreading though *giggles*

FF.net wasn’t nice to me today, and not for the first time, too, but I won lol So here is the last update and I happy I finally had time to finish the story :) *Before Christmas I mean XD*

Title: Legend of the fall

Author: myroadtonowhere aka Nadin4400

Summary: When people start disappearing in the woods of Pennsylvania some time
around Halloween, Dean goes to investigate the case and finds out that there
could be more to the legend about the Headless Horseman than he'd first thought.

Spoilers: Season 3 only, up to Episode 7

Characters: Dean, Bela, Sam, Bobby

Pairings: Dean/Bela (yep, finally!)

Rating: T for language and content

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters of this story. The plot, however,
is all mine. And so are the mistakes

Chapter 7 NEW and LAST!!

I had a funny dream last night. It was about going to Spain again. I’ve been to Barcelona last September and absolutely loved it, and other cities I visited, too. The nature and the whole atmosphere were amazing and I really wouldn’t mind going again some day.

So, back to the dream. It was a little weird. The four of us – my mom, her bf, his son (who didn’t look like his real son but I knew it was him in that way you always know smth in the dreams) and me arrived at Barcelona but it somehow turned out that none of us booked a hotel and we had to run all over the city (that also didn’t look exactly like Barcelona but then again I knew it was it) to find a place to stay :p And then I found out that I forgot my photo camera at home. And what kind of vacation it is without photo camera???? O.o I don’t remember anything else, only know that this dream transformed later into smth else :P

It became really cold here. I don’t remember the last time I had to wear jacket in September. Now I’d freeze without it :p

Yesterday I finally finished my latest fanfiction and will probably update it today.

Got my car back from mechanic’s. It is better than it was but not as good as I remember it 3 years ago *sighs* My baby’s getting old I guess :S Now I wonder if it makes sense to think about changing it. I don’t exactly have money for it but I spend so much on repairing that maybe it would be a better decision after all :P

Been watching “On the head of a pin” yesterday… again. Love this episode. Seeing Dean all broken and defeated in the end makes me wanna cry every time.

Okay, the winter has arrived on September 2 LOL It was a little unexpected but it’s been raining since early morning – and not just raining but practically pouring. Sure it was the day when I had to leave my car at mechanic’s! XD By the lunch time the temperature dropped till +10, and I was wearing open shoes – because no normal people expect it to be so cold on the second day of the fall. I’ll need to revise my wardrobe. No idea where all warm clothes are now :P

Today I got another order from Amazon, some books. 3 of them actually – “Witch’s Canyon” from Supernatural series, the one based on The 4400 Tv show called “Welcome to Promise City” (I was waiting for it a lot since I hated the way the show ended leaving more questions than answers) and Jim Beaver’s “Life’s that way” that he published recently. I need him to sign it for me the next year :) I really couldn’t wait to get them as I ran out of books here already XD Even started to read during the lunch break :)

Can’t believe that only some 8 days are left till Season 5 of Supernatural I am so stuffed with all sorts of spoilers now LOL Been re-watching Season 4 starting last week. “The monster in the end of this book” was the latest one I reached so far. Love the scene in the laundry shop with Dean reading about himself reading about himself LMAO

Due to the national holiday here, a Constitution day, I am having Monday off :) It really is the best feeling ever – to wake up on Monday morning and realize that there is no need to get out of bed right away lol

I did some cleaning and washed my car, went for a grocery shopping and sorted some stuff for the upcoming working days. Now I can chill out and wait for the evening. Hopefully, my dance class won’t be canceled. It wasn’t on Friday but the teacher will see how many people will show up and then decide.

Anyways, last Friday I got my first payment. Can’t believe it’s been a month since I started working in the company. Time flies indeed. I am getting used to my new job. It is exhausting like hell and every single evening I feel like after running a 10-mile cross but I don’t care as long as it is payable. I’m still not okay with the whole thing though, I mean I don’t like some office rules, like they have some restrictions on clothes and loose hair, and I never ever had to mind what I am allowed to put on and what should be left for my off-work time. But I kinda okay with liking to hate it XD

My dressing style is somewhat unusual. Not for me, but according to my friends, and on Friday I put on my fav leggings and loose tunica, all black and with gothic picture. But unfortunately it was a bad idea and I had to call my mom and ask her to bring me plain pants and a t-shirt *sighs* Aw, come on! How about personality?

On Saturday evening my friend Katie and I went to have a bike ride. In about 30 mins it started to rain and we had to hide. Okay, nothing new here. Yesterday, we went to have another bike ride. And guess what? Exactly! It started to rain again! We spent like about 40 mins standing under the roof near supermarket. Okay, such thing could have happened once. But twice?! Two days in a row?? Even my lack of luck was overworking this weekend XD

I planned to finish my last Spn fic this weekend but apparently I won’t do it because there’s too much to do and not enough time. Well, some day I’ll finish it… maybe :))

Hope everyone’s having good time!

Yesterday I nearly fainted in the dance class when my blood pressure suddenly dropped, or jumped. Whatever... It wasn't nice :-/ I felt very dizzy first and then saw funny bright spots before my eyes, and had to sit down for a while... okay, for 10 minutes. Still wonder what it was ???
And on my way back home it started to rain and I soaked to my bones *rolls eyes* Well, without hot water at home I sorta got used to cold showers but still...

I also had a weird dream last night, about TV show "The 4400", like before, when I was into it and watched like 2 episodes every day :P *Yep, it was my big pre-Spn love* In my dream there was something like a The 4400/Supernatural convention. I saw Jim and Genevieve, and also Conchita Campbell and Jenni Baird from The 4400. In some parts I was there and the others I could see like from aside. Like on TV. The funniest moment was when I saw Jim in the restaurant and he ordered chicken and he got it on a very big plate, which was almost as big as the table although the chicken was of a normal size.

lol Weird tricks of mind, huh

Okay, so my dance lessons began again yesterday, after a 3-week break, and the first thing I know - I don't like the color they picked for the dance class-room :P It had been green-grey before and I liked it, and now it is peach-golden and it looks weird and out of place :-/ I'm glad to be back tho, but I somehow don't feel the same with this stupid color of the walls :P

Okay, here is 99 questions meme what I boldly stole from dutchess_sandra. I had a pretty boring lunch break and it was too hot to go out for a walk :p so I filled it in :)) Feel free to read! It’s boring perhaps but still :)

( 99 Q’s meme )

Just a brief update.

I survived the first week in the new office… and it took me like 3 hours on the first day to understand that it is absolutely not what I was looking for :p I’ll stay there until I find anything else but I really hope it won’t be for long because making steps DOWN the career ladder is not what I can afford at the moment :p I plan to go to another interview next week, some law company. Hope they’ll offer me something more interesting.

It was my Mom’s Birthday on Thursday. We never celebrate I, neither hers, nor mine, so we just went out for dinner. We live together but with the work and my dance classes we barely see each other. 20 mins in the morning and 30 in the evening, and during grocery shopping on the weekend, so it was nice. We went to a coffee shop and had a cake, talked about some random stuff and had a walk then. I bought her flowers and perfume (Givenchy’s “Irresistible” and she loved it)

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I washed my car today because it was really dirty and then it started to rain like an hour later :p So, it’s dirty again lol I don’t really care but it’s just annoying. I checked the forecast – and didn’t find rain in there!

My friend Katie called me to have a walk today and it was lovely. We’re friends ever since we were 10 and we live quite close but we don’t see each other much because we’re always busy *sighs* That’s bad

It’s really hot outside now, like in a sauna, and also there’re lots of mosquitoes :S They are evil. I can’t wait for the winter! I want it to be cold, freezing cold! Anything’s better than this never-ending torture

Yay, I was tagged! For the first time ever lol
All credits to blackbetrayal
Anyway, here’s the deal:
First: If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new question.
Second: Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.


( My answers )


Okay, I’m tagging dutchess_sandra, jessie84, maddonna001, blackbirdj2, jensensgirl81, thisis_melissa, jimpp and trueshellz

You don’t have to do it, guys, but I just thought it could be fun :)

I know I haven’t been updating lately. No time, really, and when I ha d a bit of it, I was too tired to form informative sentences.

So, some news:

* I sort of start new job tomorrow. Sort of – because it’s not a 100% thing yet, I mean I’m on probation and I’m gonna see how it’s going to work. I’m pretty nervous about it because I haven’t had new job for 4 years so I don’t remember anymore what it is like to be a part of new company and meet new people and learn again. But I’ve been searching for something more or less good for 2.5 months already and I’m sure I’m interviews expert by now, assuming the number of times I had interviews lately. It’s not a dream job and not exactly what I was looking for but on Thursday my friend called me said that they had a vacancy and told me to come and talk to the boss. So I did. Funny thing – this friend of mine is also called Nadin, she also has red hair and just like me she’s a Gemini. Funny.

* My cats were sick but they are not anymore. I’ve been taking them to the vet for injections every day last week. They both hadn’t been eating. Not they are fine and happy again. Poor butterflies that happen to fly into my apartment lol

* I watched Harry Potter part 6 and I wasn’t disappointed. My decision not to read the book again before going to the movie was the right one. I almost forgot what it was about and it worked :)

* On Wednesday night my mother’s aunt died :(( Such things are always unexpected unfortunately, even when people are really sick. I guess everyone hopes for the best till the very end. My mom had a day off on Friday and we went to the funerals. I don’t see most of my relatives a lot and it is sad that mostly we meet on such occasions.

* A couple of months ago I had a crush on my neighbor. He’s a nice guy and I liked talking to him and all. But I wasn’t up to complicating my life and almost persuaded myself that it was nothing and that I was over him and all. Apparently, I am not over him but it is still a bad idea and I still don’t know what to do.

* Only one week is left till my lessons in dance studio start again and I can’t wait!

* My car is crazy again and I’m really worried because no mechanic can say what exactly is wrong with is. the problem is, it dies whenever it wants, not necessarily when I take it to show it to a mechanic so we can’t establish the reason because seemingly everything is okay :-/

* On August 6 my mom has a Birthday and now I desperately try to find some time to go and buy her a present. I know that she’d like to get a perfume. That’s a relief. I always have hard times when it comes to present.

* I keep rewatching Supernatural, over and over again. Can’t wait for Season 5!

That’s it so far. I’ll try to post more often and not in such terribly chaotic way.

I wonder if I ever finish this story at all lol Absolutely no time for writing lately. And... the most awesome news - I asked my Mom to bring me my notebook where I was writing it and she left it in the car, and then left the car in the service :( Now my notebook is in the car service, now how really awesome is that? I'll get it by evening hopefully but who knows? *Seriously, Mom!*

Title: Legend of the fall

Author: myroadtonowhere aka Nadin4400

Summary: When people start disappearing in the woods of Pennsylvania some time
around Halloween, Dean goes to investigate the case and finds out that there
could be more to the legend about the Headless Horseman than he'd first thought.

Spoilers: Season 3 only, up to Episode 7

Characters: Dean, Bela, Sam, Bobby

Pairings: Dean/Bela (yep, finally!)

Rating: T for language and content

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters of this story. The plot, however,
is all mine. And so are the mistakes

Chapter 5 NEW!!

Chapter 4

Chapter 3

Chapter 2

Chapter 1

Reviews and comments are always appreciated! :))

And finally I finished my New Dean/Bela video :))
New prog, cool song... Hope it's okay :)

Yesterday I went hiking with my friend Katie, her family and some their friends. Actually, I consider myself quite lucky. My country could be not the best place to live, and like they say – any place is perfect as long as we’re no there. But there’s one thing that I am 100% sure about – we have beautiful nature!

( Some pictures )